Sunday Sept 6

ok so this post is probably not going to be very exciting but i could use some extra prayers right now as i am struggling with a lot of things

i know in my heart that this is where God wants for me and what He has in His plan for me. or at least i thought it was. my head is really struggling with this fact right now. i am enjoying living up here and going to the classes, but at the same time i am have some major doubts.

i still haven't been able to find a job. i have enough money to make it through the first year but i hate the thought of wiping out everything that i have worked for for 6 years to have it all be gone in a year. i know that God will provide if this is where He wants me, but at the same time i can't help worrying about it. all the what ifs start running threw my mind and tearing me down really quickly. what if i didn't listen. what if once again this is what i wanted and not what God wanted. i left a place where i was comfortable with a job and great friends and my family to be here without all of that. it is just really wearing me down and fast!

i am also really homesick :( to the point that i don't even want to call home or talk to very many people from alabama because when i have to get off the phone with them i feel even more sad. i never thought i would be this way. i'm seriously to the point that i want to pack up a bag and make the 11 hour trip if it is just to be there for one day. but again i can't do this because that would take money that i don't have! ahhhh it's just all really getting to me!

ok so enough sadness on to somewhat happier topics. i am really enjoying the school part of being up here. i am learning so much! i've had three quizes thus far and i made an 80, 90, and 100 on them! i've even kept on top of my readings and assignments and have already started working on a paper that isn't due for a month and if you know me with schooling you know that is a big deal lol! (no more procrastinating... at least not yet!)

i am also really enjoying looking for a church. i have been to three different ones and have at least one or two more that i want to try out before i start revisiting some of them and make a final decision. it has been quite interesting seeing all the different ways in which people worship. it is so different here from what i am use to. none of the one's that i have been to have an actual choir, it's all praise team. i even went to one where the preacher had a jeans! lol not that this is bad it's just again not what i am use to :)

but i guess that is all for now but just please keep me in your prayers!
specifically....
me keeping my focus on what God has for me
finding a job
getting plugged in with the right church family