well unfortunately the realization of ministry jobs is hitting me in just a few short weeks! two of my best friends in nc will be leaving way too soon. the husband has been offered a youth minister position in sc. while i am super excited for them and for the wife to have to opportunity to stay home with there 8 month old, i cannot deny that this makes my heart break. i have really felt like this year i have built sincere and lasting relationships with people here and now two of them are leaving me. after spending time with them this weekend, it really hit me that this is something that i am going to have to be prepared for often with ministry. it's funny that this is hitting me so hard. i knew it was a part of the job and i went through it in high school and early college when my music minister and youth minister moved off, but it is just different this time. basically i am just sad and going to really miss them. although it is definitely a plus that his job is in mertle beach :) looks like summer weekends may be spent on the beach and who can complain about that!
i have decided that it is time to do a major body and soul cleansing! :) i started yesterday and i have already slipped a few times, but i am really focusing are doing better. i just have several habits that are part of my life that i need to get rid of and several habits that aren't part of my life that i need to incorporate. i won't go into much detail about it but a few examples are my sweet tea addiction! ahhhhh sonic you are my devil. i am not going to be silly enough to say that i am no longer drinking any sweet tea, but i am seriously cutting back. my goal is only two a week :) lol i know i'm a little pathetic, but it's my weakness! another thing is exercising. j and i have been going a few days a week to walk/jog and we have been doing really good. the other day we did over 5.5 miles and jogged about a mile. but i really want to kick it up some so i went and got a few workout videos so i am going to incorporate those into my week as well. so there is the body cleansing now onto the soul. :)
i tend to let my tongue run away with me. i need to make sure that the words coming out of my mouth are glorifying to God and keeping the people around me's hearts happy. i tend to say things i shouldn't and complain too much so i am making a super conscious effort to speak positively and kindly to everyone and about everything. i know this is a big goal, since we all say things we shouldn't at times, but i need to try harder. another soul part is my bible study. there is rarely ever a day that goes by that i don't read from my bible, but why am i reading from my bible. these reasoning varies from school assignments, to being able to check off my to-do list, to just guilt and the frustrating feeling of ugh i have to do my bible study today. none of these are the right reasons to approach God's life changing word and i really need to make sure that my heart is in the right place when i am doing my devotionals.
so there is a quick run down of my life for the past few weeks. :) please pray with me while i am attempting to turn my life around. these goals will only be reachable through Christ and i will fail, but with Him by my side we will pick up the pieces and i will try harder next time
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